Paige VanZant lost another fight against Rachel Ostovich at BKFC 19. VanZant is on a two-fight losing streak ever since she joined BKFC and she recently opened up about her mental state after this loss, and it was pretty bad.
On her YouTube blog series, she opened up about the heartbreaking loss and the rollercoaster of emotions she went through after the loss, she stated, “When I walked out of the ring, I didn’t just walk to my locker room, I literally walked all the way outside and I just went and cried in the parking lot by myself. I said some things to my husband that are pretty terrible about like my mental state.”
“I told him I didn’t want to live anymore, that this wasn’t for me anymore. Like life wasn’t for me anymore so I was disappointed, it was hard.”
Paige talked about all the hate she has to deal with, she feels like if everyone around the world is just rooting for her to fail, “I’m bummed out, bummed out to say the least,” VanZant said. “Everyone expects me to lose and everyone expects me to fail. I don’t know, I just feel like people have this specific perception of who I am and especially online. It’s crazy how much people can hate on a single person. I just don’t get it.”
“His success is the only thing that keeps me going,” Paige VanZant on her husband Austin Vanderford
“It can be hard when Austin and I are married and he keeps winning and I keep losing but honestly him and his success is the only thing that keeps me going,” VanZant explained. “Because I do feel like we win together.”
“His next fight will be for a title and I know he’s going to win. I just know how good it’s going to feel for him and for me and I’m so happy. I’m so proud of him. His title fight to look forward makes it all worth it and makes me feel a little better.”